• Learn about lightworkers and the realms of Earth Angels and discover if you fall into one of these special categories.
• As Lightworkers, you have special needs. Learn how to care for yourself so that you can better care for others.
• Earth Angels, discover which realm you belong to, and how best to care for your particular needs.

Date: Sunday May 1, 2011 (International Fairy Day…Calling all elementals!)

Time: 1:30 pm – 5:00 pm

Cost: $60 (includes handbook)

Location: Coverdale Centre – 50 Runnymeade Road, Riverview, NB

Directions (from Moncton): Take the Gunningsville Bridge (the new bridge) and turn left onto the Hillsborough Road. Drive approximately 2 km then turn right on Runnymeade Road. Coverdale Centre is at the top of the hill on your left. Enter via the administration door at the back. The boardroom is directly ahead, to the right of the office. Map

Presenters: Kim Hutchinson and Steve Clayton

To Enrol: http://www.clayhuthealingcentre.ca/workshop.htm#light

For those who have made it to the top of the mountain I am happy for you for it truly is a phenomenal undertaking. If you bill yourself as a Lightworker then you must remember that, yes the view is fantastic and, yes it is good for recharging one’s batteries but you are a Lightworker. You are here to help others. Come down the mountain and bring the Light into the darkness; it is what you do. Go into the valley. Feel with your heart, listen from your heart, see from your heart, help from your heart and, very importantly, speak from your heart. Love is real and eternal. Platitudes are like Dollar Store batteries, cheap, easy and they don’t last. Remember an echo comes back empty and alone. Come down and help spread the Love. Be the Lightworker you were meant to be.

Namaste,
Steve

Q: Every morning, even though I get up at 5am, I always wake up to look at the clock, which says 4 :19. What does this time mean?

A: Time, like any number sequence, can be easily interpreted simply by examining each digit. Here is a handy guide to knowing what the numbers mean:

1 – One is the first number, so it represents a beginning. You are just getting started. Watch your thoughts. Everything that you are thinking is taking root and starting to manifest. Keep your thoughts on a positive track so that you attract to you your desires in lieu of your fears.

2 – Two is the number of partnerships, so it means your ideas or creations are starting to come together. You’re on the right path. Don’t lose faith. All the elements necessary to fulfill your dreams are coming together now.

3 – Three typically pertains to the Trinity or to the union between the Divine and humanity; therefore, it represents the ascended masters, specifically the master(s) to whom you feel most closely drawn. Jesus, for example, is an ascended master. So is Buddha, Quan Yin, Kuthumi, Afra, Lady Nada, Melchizedek, and many more.

4 – Four has great stability, therefore it represents the angels. When you see this number, know that the angels are with you! All is well. You are safe and loved. Your angels have heard your prayers and are helping you.

5 – Five is an unpredictable number so it represents change. But fear not! The changes that are coming are both positive and healthy. Open your heart to the new blessings that await.

6 – Six is the number of balance and of humanity. Think, for example, of the Merkaba, a six-sided sacred geometrical shape that points upward to Spirit and down to Earth. It is a reminder to balance your material concerns with your spiritual understanding. This number will appear when material items or needs are foremost on your mind, such as money or a lack thereof. Remember: “So above, as below”.

7 – Where six represents the human condition, seven represents Spirit. This is, therefore, truly a lucky number. When seven appears, it means you are on a roll! Keep going for you are on the right path.

8 – If you tilt the number eight on its side, it looks like the infinity symbol, so this number represents the endless flow of the universe. In simpler terms, it stands for abundance. You are manifesting effortlessly now.

9 – Nine being the last number in the sequence represents endings, or the culmination of all your hard work. You are at the pinnacle of a phase of your life. For Lightworkers and Earth Angels, it carries further meaning. If you have yet to discover the meaning of your life, you may well see a lot of nines. This number is telling you to find your purpose and to fulfil it!

0 – Zero represents the Void. Within the Void, nothing exists but God, therefore seeing zeros means you are connecting with God.

So, in answer to your question, the 4 represents the angels; the one symbolizes beginnings and positive thoughts, and the 9 denotes endings and life purpose. Put those three elements together and the message is: “We, your angels, are waking you up to the fact that one phase of your life has ended, whist another is beginning. Don’t look back at the past. Instead, focus on the present and plan for the future with positivity. We are here helping you, so you have nothing to fear. And if, in the process, you discover a greater purpose that comes to you in the form of a desire to assist humanity and Mother Earth, then pursue this path! We will be here with you every step of the way.”

Angel blessings,

Kim

Q: I have seen very, very often I would say twice a day the hour 11:11 on the clock radio, computer, microwave – what is that sign telling me?

A: 11:11 is the number sequence that receives the most inquiries. That is because it holds within it a powerful awakening code. If you break down the sequence into single digits, you have four 1′s. 4 is the number of the angels, and 1 is the number of beginnings. When the number 1 appears, it signifies that you are beginning a new phase of your life. It is important therefore to keep your thoughts positive. A series of 1′s, as in this case, strongly emphasizes the point. The moment you see 11:11, stop and be aware of thought process. If your thoughts are not on a positive course, say, “Delete” to erase your negative mindset, and then think of something positive that you would like to manifest. Seeing 11:11 every day is a steady reminder from your angels to remain positive. The same applies to its counterpart 1:11. Since this sequence contains three 1′s, it is connected to the Ascended Masters. The meaning of both is the same: you are planting the seeds of your future and the soil is very rich. What you think, you will become, so ensure you are only thinking about things that make you happy. If you are a lightworker, 11:11 holds further meaning. This pertains to the ascension, or the spiritual evolution of humanity. 11:11 is the awakening code that is designed to stimulate your spiritual understanding of your life’s purpose. It’s telling you to wake up and remember who you really are. See through the illusion of the fear, and move into your heart chakra. The world needs your loving guidance in order to help us make this monumental shift in human consciousness. Lightworkers are here to change the paradigm of competition and lack to oneness and love.

Q: I’m a big believer in the Law of Attraction – and lately I’ve been trying to get control of my budget which I overspend – they say that spend the money as if you already have it – if you focus on having enough you’ll get it in abundance. I’m always having problems with having enough.

A: The problem with manifesting money to control your budget is the fear of lack that is sabotaging your efforts. You cannot manifest successfully from a place of need because that energy is rooted in lack consciousness. Instead of focusing on your needs, look to your desires. Need flows from your human mind whereas desire flows from spirit. Don’t try to manifest money to pay off debts and bills; joyfully focus your energy on prosperity and abundance. See yourself having fun with the resources that you will surely attract. Don’t worry about lack in any way, but do be responsible with your personal spending. It’s important to realize that manifesting money doesn’t mean spending what you do not currently possess. Racking up debt in an attempt to simulate prosperity only exacerbates the fear of lack. Budget your money wisely, and then treat yourself to something you desire with the reasonable amount that you have allotted for personal spending. Know that you are safe and loved, no matter what may happen to you in this physical realm, and release your anxiety to the angels. With time, you will start to see a steady increase in your personal resources. As your fear of debt and lack decreases, your ability to manifest will increase proportionately.

Angel blessings,

Kim

Date: Sunday Sept. 19th, 2010

Time: 1:30 pm – 5:00 pm

Cost: $60

Location:
Coverdale Recreation Centre (boardroom)
50 Runnymeade Rd, Riverview, NB

For more information or to register online:
http://clayhuthealingcentre.ca/workshop.htm#light

The majority of people I had the privilege to speak with over the last couple of days expressed one common sentiment – they had not found their path in life yet. They knew they had a purpose but they had as yet been unable to determine what that purpose was, and were feeling stressed as a result. In fact, quite a few were becoming frenzied in their search for life’s meaning for reasons they could not quite comprehend. I have compassion for their plight for it has taken me forty-five years to find my path and another couple of years to accept it. (I had trouble overcoming stereotypes and my ego’s fear of ridicule and failure. It’s a wonder I am where I am at all!) So I say to all you seekers, take heart and do not become discouraged. Don’t put pressure on yourself. Things happen when they are meant to happen. That may sound trite or hackneyed but it is the truth. Now this does not mean one is to sit back and do nothing; one just has to pay attention to the signs. These clues and hints are presented to us every day if we are open to receiving them. The trick is to subdue your ego and open your heart so that you may become more aware of that which eludes our five senses. It is important not to let the preconceptions of your ego interfere with what is being presented. One’s path may be more grandiose or more humble than one would expect but if the path you discover makes your heart sing, or if it just feels right to you, then accept it with gratitude. This may sound overly simplistic and it is; it is only as complicated as we choose to make it.

The second most common topic I encountered dealt with staying on one’s path. The majority of people who are having a hard time staying the course are teachers, health care workers, and volunteers who are either burnt-out or are in the process of burning out from the inadequacies found in their sectors. Many are extremely overworked and yet feel guilty when they try to do more but find they do not have the energy to do so. You are Lightworkers, angels who have come here to help, but you are also half human. You have to learn to look after yourself as well as you look after others. You must also remember you are not alone. There are Lightworkers everywhere. You are part of a planetary-wide network. Join a lightworkers circle, meditation group, or just get together with like-minded individuals to chat. If you cannot find such groups in your area, put out the idea that you are willing to start a circle or group and then ask for your angels help.

I want to end this by once again thanking all the Lightworkers for coming here with the intention to help. Thank you for believing in love and for seeing the positive potential in others. Your fearless expression of love and your faithful work to aid and serve humanity, often without recognition, humbles me.

In eternal gratitude,

Steve

Seeing Spirits

It may or may not be comforting to know that you are never alone. You always have guardian angels and spirit guides watching over you. Additionally, archangels will swoop in from time to time to help you resolve issues, and deceased loved ones will come to visit especially whenever there is a large family gathering. The ascension process heightens our psychic awareness making us aware of these other-dimensional beings. This is at once a blessing and a curse, depending on how you look at it.

Some of you are frightened by the prospect of seeing spirits, and I share that fear. Having spirits drop in unannounced is disconcerting at best. That is why I prefer to work with angels. Their presence does not frighten; in fact, they calm me down and fill my home with love and peace. Their gentle presence is dramatically different than Earth-bound spirits, for example. These folks have left their physical bodies but have not returned Home for healing and recuperation. They are, essentially, trapped by their own choosing in the negativity of their ego. (No one is ever turned away from the Light. We come from love, we are love and we will all eventually return home to the omnipresent love of All That Is.) When these Earth-bound spirits come around, you can feel it. They bring fear, anger and pain with them.

If you are aware of these unwanted visitors, ask Archangel Michael to escort them from your space and to see if they are ready to go Home. You can also ask them if they know that they are deceased. (Surprisingly, some don’t.) Tell them that their loved ones are waiting for them on the Other Side, and that they are loved no matter what they did in this lifetime on Earth. Urge them to go to the Light. If they still won’t leave, visualize your home filled with God’s white-gold light, and see it pouring into you and your family members and pets. Keep reminding yourself that you are a child of God and that you are completely protected. Chances are these spirits will not hang around. They prefer the darkness whereas your fear is an invitation for them to stay. In other cases, they want you to help them. I used to have a portal in my basement where spirits came and went all the time. I noticed the activity increased whenever I watched ghost shows like Most Haunted, so I promptly stopped. I then asked the angels to seal the portal and to tell these beings that I was not able to help them. I apologized to them, and then I stopped ‘taking their calls’, so to speak.

Feeling Blocked / Psychic Attacks

This one isn’t meant to scare you, but I need to address it as many of my Lightworker friends and myself have been targeted recently. I will share with you my experience so that you can see what might happen, coupled with how to protect yourself.

Several weeks ago, I attended a lightworkers circle. While I was mediating, a being disguised as angel swooped down and grabbed me by the wrist and yanked me up through a spiraling white wormhole into a veritable Paradise, and then out the other side. While passing through Eden, I wanted to cry because it was so beautiful. What I didn’t understand was why the ‘angel’ wouldn’t let me stay. He yanked me through this level of consciousness into black space. That’s what alerted me to the fact that he was not an angel at all. I stopped and asked to see his face. That’s when I noticed a second being with him. I couldn’t focus on either of them, so I asked them to come closer. The one who had grabbed me was a man with long white hair and a matching beard. He looked like a shepherd. The second was a woman with a very pointy chin. It was her chin that alarmed me. I could see angels or spirit guides looking like a shepherd, but not having a scary-looking facial feature. They tried to convince me they were angels by spreading their wings. The wings looked huge like a magnified version of a swan’s wings, but when they spread them, they looked menacing. I felt this was meant to intimidate me. I asked them who they were and what they wanted with me, and they replied with great urgency, “You have to come with us! We need you on our planet! COME!” I became alarmed and started calling for Archangel Michael. A large blue ‘angel’ appeared who I thought was Michael, but who turned out to be yet another impostor. This really alarmed me. I started mentally yelling for Michael to help me. That’s when Michael showed up. He was huge in comparison with them, and he came peacefully, not in the showy, frantic manner that they had. He just stood beside me quietly like massive statue, and they immediately disappeared. I knew it was the real Michael and not his doppelganger because he was so still. I asked him for protection, and he invited me to link with him by grasping each others’ wrists and pulling away from each other. We began to spin and in doing so we created a large blue vortex. He said I was safe within that vortex because it contained his energy. I traveled through that vortex back to the light circle.

Several members of my Lightworker circle have been blocked by these beings. The hosts of the circle very nearly cancelled it altogether because of the negativity and fear that threatened to overwhelm them. The good news is, they broke through it, as did I, and we are all feeling happier now. I asked the angels why we were targeted by these beings and they told me that Earth’s ascension is affecting every being in the universe. Our elevation from the third to the fifth dimension of consciousness is altering life everywhere. That means we are being watched, helped and sometimes hindered by beings from other planets. The overwhelming majority of starpeople are friendly and very advanced. These beings are facilitating our ascension. The ones who are trying to hinder us are not as advanced and so are more uncertain about the idea of ascension.

My advice to you is not to be afraid. Call on Archangel Michael to vacuum away all the fear and negativity from you, your family, your pets, your home, your possessions, your workplace, and so forth. Ask him to cut your cords of fear, as well. Then, envision yourself inside a rose-coloured, heart-shaped bubble of pure love. These beings who are interfering with your ascension are frightened, and so the best remedy is to send them pure love.

Change of Life’s Purpose

If you were not aware of your life purpose prior to the awakening and start of your ascension, you soon will be. For those of you who have been on the path for a while, you may discover that your mission has shifted. Either way, this is going to change the very focus of your life. Things that once held your attention may now bore you. The job that you once loved may soon feel meaningless. Your soul is now in the driver’s seat and it is making the decisions for you.

In my case, I thought giving angels readings was my life’s purpose. Turns out, that no longer applies. Recently, the Goddess told me that I was now a ‘guiding star’. At that point in my ascension, I had arrived at the 8th dimension and was connecting to the golden energy of the Christ Consciousness. (Since then, I have been seeing a blank slate and hearing ‘10’, but I have yet to discover the meaning.) I kept hearing ‘merkaba’ and seeing a 3-D six-sided rotating star. I also heard that I was being guided by Lord Melchizedek. I have since researched these terms and was delighted to discover they made perfect sense! Merkaba means ‘light spirit body’. It is a vehicle for ascension and can be activated using sacred geometry. Melchizedek, I discovered, is the ascended master in charge of the ascension. He is helping to create Heaven on Earth.

So, if you receive a message, don’t discount it even if the words sound made-up. Also, don’t be frustrated if you don’t readily understand your new purpose. It took me several weeks to understand the guiding star reference. I now know that I am to guide people through the various states of consciousness in order to accelerate and facilitate their ascension. I wasn’t sure how this would occur, but the angels answered that question too by simply changing the content and focus of my angel readings away from the typical fare to the more esoteric topic of ascension.

A Desire to Go Home

If you have been experiencing a desire to return Home that is not born out of a mental health issues, you may be relieved to discover that this is not a suicidal tendency. Archangel Michael explained to me that it is a pronounced desire to ascend. Those who have been awakened know that they are supposed to leave the 3rd dimension and move upward, but they don’t know how to achieve this. Thankfully, the path of ascension is finally being shown to us. We can move up through the states of consciousness to be closer to the God mind without dying. As we achieve this, it will forever alter the collective human consciousness. Life as we know it will never be the same. That in itself is a type of death, but not one to be feared. Just look at the state of the world today and you will know that any change which brings us closer to God’s perfect love is a good thing indeed.

Dizziness and Headaches

During the ascension process, the crown chakra expands thereby stimulating the pineal gland, a small gland in the brain that controls higher vibrational light intake via the third eye chakra. Prior to ascension, the pineal gland is relatively inactive. Once fully ascended, the pineal gland remains open and active. The process of activating the pineal can cause headaches (cluster headaches and migraines) which can cause dizziness and vertigo.

I experience lightheadedness and headaches quite often, so when the dizziness and migraine headaches induced by the ascension process kicked in, I was shocked by the intensity. The most intense experiences occurred this week after I received the S.A.C. (Spiritual Alignment Connection), a healing process that facilitates the ascension process by aligning the meridians in the body and helping to reconnect all 12 strands of DNA. I became so focused on my third eye chakra that I got caught up in its vortex of energy. The centrifugal force made me feel nauseated and weak. Through a grounding process, I was able to bring myself back into my body and the spinning stopped. If you feel lightheaded or nauseated, you too may be expanding your psychic awareness or connecting with your soul’s vortex energy. The best solution is to breathe deeply while envisioning roots attaching your feet to the heart of Mother Earth.

The S.A.C. also heightened my light sensitivity by increasing activity in my pineal gland. I experienced three ocular migraines in one week, all of which were induced by sunlight. I have also been seeing more ‘ghostly’ images than usual. If you experience similar symptoms, my advice to you is to keep your blinds drawn, maintain a consistent by indirect lighting in a room, and always wear sunglasses if you’re outside. You can also ask the angels to turn down the frequency until you adjust to the new light sensitivity.

Happy ascension, everyone! Till next month…

In love and light,

Kim

I am very happy and relieved to report that I am feeling much cheerier, and am back to my usual optimistic self, even if I don’t have the energy to fully express my joy. I know many of you feel the same way. The fluctuating energies of ascension can be exhausting! Despite being able to shake the utter blackness that enveloped me in November, perhaps understandably I’ve lost much of my capacity to cope with stress; but, instead of looking at my diminished tolerance for stress as a curse, I see it as the gift it is. I am finally honouring my emotions instead of fighting them. As for my feelings of lethargy, I am embracing them too. This pervasive fatigue has been with me since mid-December, and while I feel as though I slept-walked my way through the holidays, I really did have a wonderful Christmas and New Year’s.

The good news is we are in an anchoring phase. That means the roller coaster of emotions ride is coming to a halt. Aside from the fatigue, I’m finding this new energy to be very ‘centering’. It’s allowing me to reconnect with my higher self, the part of me that knows what is best for me, and that part is saying: “Follow your body’s signals. Sleep when you are tired, eat when you’re hungry, and say no to commitments that drain you.” That is truly the best advice the angels and I can pass along to you right now. Just go with the flow. Follow your inner wisdom, for no one knows better than you what is in your highest interest. Enjoy this reflective period. Give yourself the time and space to reconnect with your soul’s energy. Find your personal path and follow it unapologetically.

My angelic guides tell me that next month a huge wave of love will blanket the planet. This new energy will arrive on Valentine’s Day (how apropos!), carrying our consciousness into the 5th Dimension. This loving energy will help our energy to take root in the heart chakra. We will, in effect, be phasing out our first three chakras (roots, sacral and solar plexus). These are the energy centers in us that emphasize separation. Our root is about our survival, the sacral deals with our emotions, and the solar plexus is our perception of self along with our intellect. As we leave those energies behind in the 3-D realm, we gain a greater sense of oneness with All That Is.

Light vs. Dark

Even though everything is starting to settle down, I know many of you are still wading through the heavier energies of the previous months. Since we all progress at our own rate towards our own unique destination, this variance in ascension levels is completely normal. I don’t wish to leave anyone behind so I am going to talk a bit about the heavier, chaotic energies that are affecting many of you now.

As much as I prefer to be a resolute Pollyanna, all the sunshine in the universe cannot mask the fact that there are those who create darkness on our beautiful planet. We live in the world of form, after all. This 3-D existence allows for co-existing light and dark energies. To give you an example of coexisting dark and light energies, many Lightworkers are struggling with debt, doubt, and fear. There is a pervasive blackness that refuses to budge despite our best efforts to emit light and love. All seems well on the surface. To many, it would appear that our lives are happy and fulfilled. Why then does it sometimes feel as though a dark and fearsome menace lurks in the shadows like a rabid wolf, waiting to pounce? The answer lies in the shifting focus of our collective energies.

Our energy spins like a vortex. As the Earth’s vibrational speed increases, the lower energies are being thrown off. Anything that is dark and heavy belongs in the 3-D realm. It simply cannot exist in the 4th and 5th dimensions of light. That darkness contains the sum total of human fears. I see what looks like black marble-sized balls of negativity ricocheting off everything and everyone. When Lightworkers get hit by these balls of negativity, we’re thrown for a loop. If we get hit by multiple balls at once, then we feel like we’re under attack. Add to that, many people struggle to preserve the status quo. They worked hard to achieve their successes in life and thus are not willing to allow for a shift in energy lest they lose their power. Some may go so far to as to use their energy / thoughts like weapons. These psychic attacks can feel very unpleasant when they occur. You may be experiencing the fall-out of this heavier energy if you notice the following symptoms:

• Intense, blinding pain that erupts quickly and without any apparent cause (i.e. lower back pain, headaches)
• Rapidly cycling feelings of depression, despair, anxiety, anger and apathy, all without any real cause.
• Suicidal thoughts and an intense longing to return Home.

These symptoms erupt seemingly without cause, and disappear just as mysteriously, lasting roughly 48 hours. Instead of being fearful, there are two sure-fire ways to replace the negativity with light:

1) Ask for help: The negativity that envelops you will try to black out communication with your spirit. If you are like me, then you may find that you cannot hear or see your angelic guides during an attack. If this happens to you, it is vitally important that you do not isolate yourself but instead reach out to ‘light-minded’ friends and family members who can help put things into perspective for you. Remember, the feelings that you experience are not your own. They are like a virus that invades your psyche. Instead of panicking, simply think of the negative onslaught as you would a bad flu. Take care of yourself and let others care for you too. Together, we lightworkers will get through this.

2) Don’t fight it: Love it instead! I made the mistake of trying to shield myself with defenses. That only intensified the pain. That is because you cannot fight something without making it stronger. Where your attention goes grows. A better approach is to surround yourself with the energy of light and love. Envision yourself inside a rose-coloured bubble of pure, spiritual love. See it filled with a bubbly energy, much like pink champagne. The bubbles are golden and the energy is very frothy and light. Nothing can permeate that love but love itself. As you think about and feel love, you create and attract more love. Envision your family, your home, your possession and your workplace in beautiful pink bubbles of love. Know that love is truly the best protection because it brings your energy into perfect alignment with Source. That in turn attracts to you everything that you desire. Your needs are perfectly met at all times.

3) Think Positively: No matter how many images of despair bombard you in the course of a day remember that love is the perfect answer to every woe. Do not dwell on the negative. Others may try to polarize us, but they cannot succeed if we all stay true to our spirit. The epic battle between good and evil is as old as time. Fortunately, we have a golden opportunity to avoid a full-out battle this time. Instead of fighting the dark forces, we simply need to awaken enough lightworkers to elevate the level of consciousness on our planet from a fear based, bi-polar realm to a heart-based, enlightened one. The true battle is one of enlightenment. Return to your source. Follow your heart. Be happy. Love freely. Be true to yourself. Stay in the light!

In light and love,

Kim

Lightworkers are on the leading edge of this accelerated evolutionary shift. They are fulfilling their soul’s purpose by helping to bridge the gap between Heaven and Earth. This change, while incredibly beneficial, is also stressful. Everyone is feeling a degree of anxiety or a sense of anticipation. For ultra-sensitive Lightworkers though, this shift can feel like an out-of-control roller coaster ride. I know this to be true as I have felt the effects firsthand. I would like to share my experiences with you:

The week of Nov. 11 – 17

The latest phase of ascension started with the shift in energies on November 11th. A new influx of higher energy permeated Earth’s thick atmosphere and began to break up the palpable negativity at a molecular level. I remember feeling phenomenally energized that day.

Then, Friday the 13th rolled around. I am not superstitious, so the date did not bother me; however, this was one Friday the 13th that I will not soon forget. I awoke to a feeling of dread. To say I was upset would be an understatement. My logical mind couldn’t comprehend the reason for my soul’s angst so it externalized the fear by focusing on my debts. I developed an almost paralyzing fear of lack. This in turn caused me to pray to the angels and God to just take me Home. My angels told me that I had to be brave and tackle my fears.

On Saturday, I found myself arguing with my angels, I finally realized that everything in life truly happens for a reason. Good or bad, it is all part of our soul’s growth. You have to be able to see through the pain and fear in order to find the lesson. Once learned, the pain and fear disappears. By naming your fears, you minimize and ultimately let them go. It also helps to realize that it is not your fears that make you unhappy; it’s your inability to look them squarely in the eye and not flinch. Being able to talk about my fear of debt instead of hiding from it actually gave me the power to fix it. I started thinking up creative and fun ways to generate money instead of dwelling on the concept of lack.

After being plagued with insomnia once again (I’ve not slept well since the last influx of energy on 9-11) I awoke at 2 a.m. on Monday, and proceeded to have an emotional meltdown. I felt like I was trapped inside a living hell. All my old demons were bubbling to the surface. I was bone-cold despite turning the heat up and running my space heater full blast. I couldn’t hear or sense my angels at all. Thoughts of suicide were running through my mind and I was begging God to take me home. This went on for 48 hours or so, with me cycling through a different emotion every minute. I lay on the coach and cried; or rather, tried to cry. I couldn’t muster enough enthusiasm. I just felt wretched, angry, frightened, abandoned, and full of despair. I even felt possessed by a lower entity and, at times, I thought I was having a heart attack. My heart was racing so fast I couldn’t breathe. I was a wreck.

The week of Nov. 18 – 25

On Wednesday, sanity returned once more. I did a thorough clearing of my energy along with a space clearing. That, coupled with a good grounding meditation, worked wonders. I then filled the house with the light and love of God, saying over and over again, “I am a perfect child of God. I am of the light. I am in the light. I radiate light. I AM the light!” I felt 100% better. This clarity of mind ushered in new understanding. I realized that I had spent the past two days purging old negativity from my cellular memory. I was literally burning off old karmic debt in order to move to a higher vibrational frequency. In other words, I was letting go of the old (dark / negativity) in order to embrace the new (light and love).

Come Thursday, I was feeling invincible! Instead of breaking me down, the turmoil of the past week only made me stronger. In the morning, I had a vision of being a clear quartz crystal. Inside, I was filled with a sparkling rose-coloured light (Divine love) that resembled pink champagne. The bubbles were actually angel energy. Surrounding the crystal was a bright sphere of Divine golden light. The light would rhythmically pulsate, sending sonic waves outward in all directions, breaking up negativity at a molecular level.

Sunday and Monday were really trying days for me. I felt the anxiety and stress welling up inside me, and once again I was feeling trapped, vulnerable and powerless. In the darkness I called out for help. That is when the Goddess Kali answered. I found myself re-energized, strengthened, fortified and readied for battle. Kali is the Hindu Goddess of eternal energy. She embodies time and change. Her image is one of dichotomy. She epitomizes death and destruction while at the same time exuding nurturing, motherly energy. I found myself clothed head-to-toe in black and carrying Goddess stones in lieu of my ethereal angelic crystals. At first I was confused by this change in energy. Then it occurred to me that the Goddess Kali was helping to break down the old energies in order to make way for the new. Destruction is a vital phase in the process of ascension.

Today I feel better and more even-keeled. I am still receiving emails from Lightworkers in distress though, so I know this bumpy ride isn’t over yet.

My Advice to You

The degree to which you feel the effects of the ascension depends on your level of sensitivity. No matter how intense or mild your symptoms, it is vitally important that we band together. Don’t let fear destroy your happiness. Communicate with others. Reach out, share your experiences, and ask for help. Don’t suffer in silence. Even if you don’t understand why you feel anxious, talk about it with a friend. Chances are you’re not alone! Don’t fear the darkness. It’s bound to the light in perfect balance, like the yin-yang energy of our duality. Remember, it is always darkest before the dawn. This phase will soon pass.

In love and light,
Kim