|April 30, 2012||Posted by clayhut under Spiritual Awakening|
When I was much younger I would hear terms such as ‘God-fearing Christian’, ‘God-fearing American’ ‘God-fearing person’ or ‘God-fearing People’ and I would instantly think, as if I had undergone Pavlovian conditioning at an early age, we are a race of sinners who have to be on constant guard against our weaker selves. Life unfolded along unseen paths, as life is want to do I, and began to sense an uneasiness deep within myself whenever I heard the above phrases. Again I thought or, more precisely, I felt I must be much worse than I had first believed. Even that did not sit right within me though I could not have told you why. I began, perhaps to exonerate myself, to reconsider the notions of original sin and karma. Original sin made absolutely no sense to me and karma, well karma appeared to have become even more homogenized than the milk we drank by the gallon.
Life took an even larger unexpected turn when I was introduced to Energy Healing and reacquainted with Spirituality – true spirituality rather than the homogenized version of the modern technological society which I had chosen to be born into. (To clarify, I have not just discovered the word ‘homogenized’ for this word, rather ironically or perhaps as a foreshadowing, has been proudly stamped on milk cartons since my early childhood and I am only now beginning to sense the depths of its insidiousness.) These two introductions turned out to be momentous occasions in my life, occasions that, in the serenity of their arrival, I almost missed. Spirituality, which had made sporadic appeals to me through the years, appeals I had basically ignored, was able to finally take root in my heart as both Energy Healing and my wife’s tenacity opened me up enough to allow a partial lowering of the walls I had so stoically built around myself. Absolutes, at least in my case, were the foundations of choice by my ego and it did not relinquish them willingly. Working with the energy on a daily basis with people and animals really drove home the fact, as I have stated repeatedly, that we all, everything, are made from the same energy. The commonality of that energy (an absolute – if you will humour me) is simple. Deep in the core of everyone, every animal, bird or plant, I have had the honour to work with is Love; patient, unconditional, non-judgmental, all forgiving, infinite Love. The only stipulations I have been able to ascertain is that this Love wants to give and receive equally within its totality; God is Love and Love is God. This simple statement resonates in my heart with a certainty that is unshakable and I know that any term, label or name that pairs the words ‘God’ and ‘fearing’ together represents a misinterpretation of the true nature of God and of ourselves. In accordance with Spirit, the term should always be God-Loving. I know I for one am a God-Loving person.